Earlier this morning I had coffee with a friend of mine. It is a time of fellowship and good conversation. This morning, as we conversed, the topic of solitude came up. I mentioned how, given my personality and the kind of things I like to do, I have always avoided solitude, because solitude has always led me to boredom, and boredom to being tempted by sin.
I long time ago I took up Jet Li’s philosophy of never being bored with your free time. I thought that as long as I kept myself engaged and proactive, I wouldn’t be bored, and never give myself the opportunity to end up in dark emotional places or fall into lifestyles of sin.
However, being human, I ended up failing at this and ended up being bored at times. So in running away from boredom and what it leads me to, I ended up not learning and growing in how to combat boredom when it does show up. I ran away from my weaknesses instead of giving them over to God.
So I have realized that I, instead of running away from boredom, need to pursue solitude with God. I need to pursue those moments when I need to shut the noise, shut my mouth, stop talking, and just allow God to speak to me and pour His words and peace into my life, my soul, and all that I am.
Reflecting on this: 1 Kings 19: 9-13
“The Lord said, “Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by.”
Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave.”